Story of Mr. SIDDUGP to dr. Patil

Namaste....

Hello...

Hola...

My resolution this year is simple, "Living in my shoes".

 

Today, I am gonna tell my story. Just not a story of ups, Joy or Peace but a story of Courage, Spiritual enlightenment and Struggle. Absolute Story of scars, Wounds and Bleed.

Lemme introduce myself...

Iam Mr. SIDDUGP...

Writer, Blogger, Doctor and spiritual practitioner..

Apart from all this.

I am just an ordinary human being on mother Earth... 

Recently, I got my major in medicine. So I thought, It's a moment of my life to look back all the way. 

So yess... 

I am here to tell my own story. People may be surprised but yes. I am not expressive at all because I am a typical introvert. Lemme give words to my story...

I am a typical kannada medium guy. I guess, you can understand, How I am sounding but I am not underestimating the power of it because I grew up there and still so many people set the trend from there only but the only thing is I was late to realise the modern ideology.

A lot of the time, I was bullied just because of colourism in my school time but external beauty can satisfy your lust not your purpose in life.

I am a great devotee of baba. In my 9th standard only, I accepted baba as my spiritual guru. I just saw his photo and literally I felt the connection with him. It's a bond of purity. In my childhood, Me and my sister were doing one vruta of baba. We took sankalpa on the first day and we were doing it with the love. We completed it with a happy ending.. 

After a month, One strange incident happened in my life. Iam not claiming to trust or believe it. I don't wanna believe it blindly but It came in my experience and I appreciate it.

On November 1st, I was sitting on the bus stand bench, around 11:30 Am. Because of the Karnataka rajostava, There wasn't that much of a rush. I was eating chips, I didn't know that someone was sitting beside the bench but one old aged person called me and asked for one chip. 

He asked me that, 'I am hungry. Please gimme one chip'. 

 I looked at him. I can't express what happened at that moment. Those eyes are peaceful. I was stumbling. He asked my name and native.

He blessed me like, 'Everything will be good, bless you'. 

I was looking at him only. He wore white long kurta. Even he was carrying a Cotton long bag. 

He said to me, 'I will inquire about that bus'. He just walked out and he suddenly disappeared. After the moment, I felt something, So I started searching for him but there wasn't a single clue. 

I don't wanna say anything regarding this but after that, I clearly felt the spiritual transformation in my life. 

Maharashi Raman asked a question of "Who Am I??". Still all of the disciples are looking for the absolute answer. I was in a conversation regarding this, yoga and spiritual practices to one of the swamiji but they clearly rejected me because of my age criteria. I felt bad. Even Markandeya was a child but he achieved marana rahasya jnana at an early age from Lord Yama. At that time, Markandeya's age didn't matter but one of our Rishi vidyaranya speaks about drikdrushyavivek chinatmani. It clearly tells about the relationship between object and vision, soul and body in 5 understandable examples. As far as, Spiritual yogic practices are very harmful and practiciy in bare hands is very dangerous. Unlocking and releasing chaitnya Shakti can be harmful to life. Agama shastras didn't explain anything clearly. Scriptures always start with guru shrota because only guru can save you, heal you and protect you. That's why, Every family has a guru parampara. Have their own moola guru. If I consider my family. Our family belongs to Rishi vishwamitra. If I consider it. I found so many similarities in my family. 

Not a funny thing.. 

Yes. Guru is absolutely necessary before any spiritual practices. It's good to walk in a spiritual way but it's not good to live in a spiritual way. Understanding differences makes our life better always.

In this midst, I have one moment to mention. I was in one unknown place with unknown people even unknown language. It was a moment, I was running behind my own options. I decided to go for it. I was standing in the bus stand. I was looking at everyone but the thing is everyone having their own life stuff. That was the closest observation I ever had. I can't communicate with people because language was completely strange for me. I was roaming without anything. I didn't appreciate my tears at that moment. I was asking for help. Everything was strange for me. Yes. It was hard for me but I thought that, I am harder than the situation. I am blessed with a very great family but I decided to choose my life rather than going with people options. I wish, nobody wouldn't go through this.

I decided in the middle of the bus stand, 'I will make it for myself'. That's the initiation I gave to my life for better things. If I remember that moment, I can't stand it. I was hungry the whole day, I had hardly one way ticket money in my hand but all above this, Your true self blows at the right time and only those tough times teach you, how to be tough all the time?.  

After that, I was admitted to med school for my major. Everything wasn't great but all we need to know is, everything happens for a great time. Only tough times teach you the harsh reality of everything.

One of my biggest scars till now is that moment, where I broke myself as pieces, where I completely realised the modern claiming truths of darkness. Yes, Still that moment is hunting me like anything. Still, I feel anxious. On the other hand I feel like, I am a truly blessed child.

I was delivering practical Manuel regarding Application of 5P'S rule in modern marketing areas with collaboration. At that time, I was trapped in one USA based company. Lately, I realised that, I was trapped completely. I wasn't sleeping the whole week, my eyes are darkened and swollen, my appetite was burned out. I lost myself in thinking, I had tremors. I wasn't talking. I was on the bed the whole day. I wasn't able to speak out. Literally I was dying inside. I was afraid of everything. I was praying to the baba.

One midnight, I suddenly woke up, It was like sudden realisation, One random thought like, You are more than what you think and nobody can stop you from anything. 

The next day, I decided to take the big step. I felt like taking any risk. I wrote a letter to the Former prime minister of USA Mr. Trump for the help. I even wrote the letter to the local commissioner cop of New York City but god's grace within 48 working hours. I got a reply back. The local commissioner office of New York asked for an explanation of the incident. Within a week, Officially the company was closed by the government. I got threatened but death is not in our hand but only one thing in our hand is living our life.

For gratitude, I participated in an USA election campaign competition 2020. To portray the relationship between the USA and the world.

Yesss. I did it.

I can say it loudly today... If you are genuine the world is always ready to help you and get it out of any mess. I don't wanna say, Be fearless but you should know, when to be fearless. Always be fearful of your moral values. 

In that way, I met One of the humble IPS officer Dr. Ram Nivas Sir. He thought me, how to be consistent. I learnt humbleness and absolutely simple living from him. He told me that, "Believe in higher power and keep trying". Those golden words allowed me to live better.

In all this, I was managing SPO, barely people know about this. People laughed at me because of SPO. The funny thing is people don't know the SPO management. Still people need to know technical advancement. I was handling the website of Yourforums.com in my earlier age and providing services but the time overlapping and scheduling content, I wasn't able to fix the things as being the med scholar. I felt like, Sometimes giving up is better than hanging in the thread. 

I started writing well. I got the 4th national prize for my kannada story of ಸಾಗಿದ ದಾರಿ around 10,000 + articles and all around India. I especially thank my sister Mss. Ganga. without her, It's nothing and thanking the audience, They made it for me.. 

After 2 months, I got the opportunity to work in the kannada film industry as a script writer. I got selected over 50 + scripts with experienced writers. Being a writer is not an easy task at all. That moment, I literally felt the world is hell. Whenever I start writing a script, I always forget my own identity and start acting like the character of that script but it was an amazing experience to be..

In my every decision time, I woke up in mid night and I got sudden realisation. I can relate this like ಬುದ್ಧ ಮಧ್ಯರಾತ್ರಿ ಎದ್ದ ಹೊರತು ಮತ್ತೆ ಮಲಗಲಿಲ್ಲ. It means, Buddha was woke up in the midnight and never slept again. 

I am here today with all the emotions. 

Becoming the doctor. It was an emotional roller coaster. I found my own weakness and strength. Lemme thank myself for the every struggle I gone through.

My life message is

"Start living in your shoes. Bhagvad geeta, 18th chapter tells about detachment is also attachment. So free from everything. Don't take your life seriously. May people laugh at you but think twice because nobody matters at the end of the day. Be strong emotionally. Live your life. Be yourself. Nobody knows anybody's life. So Just don't judge, Live well with the gratitude and politeness. Life is really too short to live in regret or past. Learn from your life and from others. Don't repeat any mistakes again. Life is beautiful and please don't make it complicated. Keep your life simple and clear. You don't need to impress anyone. Live in your shoes is simplest peaceful mantra of life".

Lemme introduce myself again with all the scars and scratch...

Iam Dr. Patil

Not just a doctor. 

Thanks for all the love and I can spread only love than Nothing...

With your Love

Dr. Patil